I just wanted to post about a major event in my life. For the past 3 years, I really haven't enjoyed my job. There were moments of success, but on a day-to-day basis, I wasn't excited to go to work. I envied teachers that would rather have a teaching day than a workshop day. I knew I used to have that spark. I used to enjoy teaching.
The great-amazing-fantastic news I have to share is that I love teaching again!!!! I have fun every day with my students. I'm excited about my work. It is again more fun to implement than to plan. What changed? I managed to break out of the bubble where sophomore Geometry was my advanced class of the day. I gained two sections of Precalc that have revitalized me. I use a graphing calculator again. I use interval notation again. I say f(x) and they know what I'm talking about. They like math and they're good at it.
Yeah, I still teach Geometry and it's evil twin Informal Geometry. (I had a group last year that soured me on the course... trying to recover.) I think I go in with a different attitude each day, though. Stress is lifted because I have taught two of my three preps before. I have a smile on my face every day. I'm not drained from being a disciplinarian on a block schedule - my two most challenging classes last year were on block. I saw them as 1.5 hour torture sessions with the greatest reward being the bell at the end of class.
No, the job isn't all rainbows and Hershey Kisses. I still put in many hours (contrary to the students who recently estimated I worked 26 hours a week). I still have challenging students. The copy machine, printer, my laptop, and Activboard cannot all work on the same day. I battle the system to get the information I need to teach effectively. But being in the classroom is once again the sunny side of the job.
I was so afraid I had lost it. Lost my enthusiasm for teaching. Lost my love of math. Lost my love of kids. What a relief that it was just hiding behind unfortunate circumstances. I hope my story can inspire the ones that are trodding through overwhelming times.